DOES EVERYONE HAVE FOOD SHAME?
DOES EVERYONE HAVE FOOD SHAME?
I was sitting at dinner the other night in a restaurant… and when 2 of the other people ordered their food, which was burgers, they said..
“I’m going to be bad tonight”.
I have said this same sentence at least a thousand times before. Have you said it too?
Those words really stung when I heard them the other night because I heard myself in it… because I heard the pain that every one of us who says that sentence feels…
“I’m gonna be ‘bad’ tonight.”
I thought to myself…
ONLY BECAUSE YOU SAY SO.
You see… I have spent a lot of time playing around in the world of ketogenic diets.
In this world… the burger is a staple food. It is what to order at a restaurant to get a ketogenic meal.
So… the question I almost ALWAYS ASK in situations like this…
According to WHO?
According to WHO is it ‘bad’?
According to the keto world… that’s the perfect thing to eat.
According to the world of low fat, high carbs or according to a vegan… that’s a horrible meal.
So… we are SHAMING OURSELVES… saying we are BAD because somewhere along the way… someone told us we were.
This story came at such a timely moment as I am knuckling down in my own self to work on this FOOD SHAME.
Of all the ways I SHAME MYSELF… FOOD MUST BE THE BIGGEST.
It’s plagued me my entire life.
I have felt shame or guilt around the food I am eating for every day of my life that I can remember… and even those that I can’t.
I am deep enough into this jungle in which I am forging new paths to know that…
until I get rid of guilt and shame around my relationship with food…
I will never feel as good about my body as I could…
I will continue to roller coaster in my size…
I will continue to commit to exercise and then let it go.
I will continue to have “healthy” periods of time with food and times when I simply let my relationship with food “go”…
I will continue to bounce between days of absolutely LOVING and ADORING myself, finding me incredibly sexy and goddess like…
to absolute self-loathing… hating every part of myself and what I see in the mirror.
Thankfully those self-loathing days are few and far between but they still creep up on me on occasion.
Either way…
As I tackle this big leap of living in my truth into the deepest meaning of that…
As I tackle removing SHAME from my life…
THIS FOOD SHAME MUST BE TACKLED.
It scares me to write this here…
Not because of the vulnerability… I know I’m not alone in this and I hope that by me sharing this with you… You realise you are not alone either… and there is definitely a WAY OUT.
It scares me to say this because when I put it here… I am held accountable to me… through you…
to live up to what I say I will do.
I have no idea how long it will take me to break through this.
I have no idea how it will evolve.
I have no idea what tools and resources I’ll end up using to go through this process of removing my SHAME around food…
What I do know is…
I am committed to the process.
Can anyone else relate? I’d love to know in the comments below!
Original Date Written: June 21, 2018
