DAY 5 POST-SURGERY UPDATE – PLUS MANIFESTED EPIC FREE LIPO FROM MY DOCTOR.
It’s been almost a week since my fingers hit this keyboard. The longest I have been away from writing of any kind in a long time.
When I last signed off with a video expressing my gratitude, as tears streamed down my face, I knew I was about to embark on one of the most transformational days of my life.
I knew there would be pain.
i knew I would be on drugs.
But holy moly…
I got more than I bargained for.
Something I hadn’t shared yet, mostly because I didn’t have time in the rush of this surgery… I was needing all the time I had to process the loss of my boobs.
I also had my hips lipo-suctioned.
For me this was purely about balance.
With such large boobs, I actually had hourglass measurements that matched my hips. So all was ‘perfect’ in balance for that size.
But I knew… with the removal of so much breast tissue… my hips would end up making me more like a pear than I wanted to.
And if I was going to go through the process of having my boobs removed… I wanted to FEEL HOT afterwards.
So, I asked the doctor to get rid of the lumps on my hips that have not bulged, no matter what size I am, since having kids. She agreed and I thought that was that.
I have been told by everyone… the lipo would hurt more than the breast reduction. They weren’t wrong. It was BRUTAL.
And here’s also what happened…
I took a picture and posted it on Tuesday in the blue scrubs… the moment i fell into complete surrender for what was to come. I could freak out, live in fear or just take a deep breath and say a FULL YES to ALL OF IT. And surrender to absolute COMPLETE TRUST IN MY DOCTOR. And finally getting super excited about what I was about to become.
It was no longer in my hands. I could do nothing except SLEEP. That’s it.
So… surrender came. Excitement for how I would feel in a few months came… Adrenalin was coursing through my veins. I mean I actually felt like I already had drugs in my system the adrenalin was so full on.
And my doctor walked in to mark me up. You know… put lines on all the places they are looking to cut and sculpt.
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Now here’s one more thing… You can ask anyone in my family and since I was a young girl… whenever asked… if there is one place on your body you would have surgically done what would it be?
MY answer… ALWAYS… my arms.
I have really strong and sculpted arms when I train, but it never mattered what size I was, you couldn’t see it, because there was always fat hanging off the back of them I could never get rid of. Even at a size 6-8.
So on Saturday morning, Hugh says to me… ‘why didn’t you talk to them about doing your arms? It’s what you’ve always wanted.’
I was surprised he asked this, because ultimately he struggles to walk into hospitals to meet his new baby children. He hates being in hospitals and doesn’t really want anything superficially changed on any of our bodies. It’s been a big road of acceptance for him in order for me to have this surgery.
Hugh never tried to stop me. He always supported me in it and understood WHY I did this, more than many. But still I think he struggled more than me in the choice of surgery.
So when he asked about my arms, I was shocked. And also giggled, because I had literally had the same thought moments before he made the comment.
So for 2 days… I thought about it and the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to have my arms done too.
But by the time I got to the doc… what was in my gut was… you are already going to feel beat up enough. So when she questioned that same thing, I quickly was happy to pass the idea on.
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So now… Back to that moment sitting in the blue scrubs waiting for the doc to came in.
She was there moments later.
I got up for her to scribble all over me.
She started with my boobs.
When I saw the cross meticulously go on, I said… “that’s where my nipple will be, hey?”
She said. yes.
OH MY. I’m talking it must be at least 5 inches higher. NO JOKE.
I was fascinated with how they do this without removing the nipple. If enough of you want to know… I’ll write a blog about that another time, leave a comment saying NIPPLE in the comments below if you want to know.
Anyway… she carefully lined up my breast.
Then she went to my hips and it was then I realised by where the pen went she was doing my sides too. I had NO IDEA.
And I was startled by that. But she smiled as she did it… “oh yes… You are going to look gorgeous.”
And she also came in and said… “the thing you have always wanted is your arms… Let’s do a little bit. We’ll just smooth them, but go easy on you. I don’t want you too bruised there.”
So… in that short span of time in which I don’t think I even was too conscious of what was really about to happen, except the cold pen scribbled all over my body… I was deemed ready for surgery.
So what went from the mental game of overcoming pain in my breasts and on my hips… became way more than I anticipated and yet I was totally ok with all of it.
I trusted that my doctor, who was ranked number one cosmetic surgeon in Denver for at least 7 years, would make me her next piece of art and make sure that everything looked balanced.
In case you are wondering what I woke up saying after a 4.5 hour surgery… I was completely drugged up and I saw my hubby’s face, right there with me… which made my whole heart full… and I said…
‘i did it. I did it. I did it. I was brave. i did it. You are my hero.’ (He was my hero for being there to look after me)
Then I looked at my boobs, realising what had happened. I really could see very little, but all i could see and feel was… ‘look… they are gorgeous. They are gorgeous’. And they really are so beautiful!
So from that moment on… from feeling the immensity of all the places the doctor has been… it has been a daily challenge to stay awake just a little bit more, stand up and walk around just a couple minutes more, reach to get something just a tiny bit further…
I seriously felt like a mack truck had SMASHED ME.
Every part of my ribs and lower back feel like they have been beat to a pulp.
The sides of my ribs where my breast tissue has been pulled so tight and there are large holes for tubes to be coming out for fluid to be released are constantly aching so using my arms to pick myself up, adjust myself in a chair, etc… it’s agonising. (I get the tubes out tomorrow 6days post surgery! YEAH!)
I don’t really want to go into the depth of the pain. Yes. It hurts. A lot. Although with new pain medications available and had I done only breasts, I wouldn’t be feeling so beat up. 
Today was one of the first days I really felt pain all over my breasts, because of this incredible slow release pain killer they are putting into the breast tissue to help manage the pain.
So for the past 5 days I’ve been in and out of sleep all day long. Mostly sleeping.
It feels good to be writing again right now.
To say hi to you all…
Waiting and wondering where i am and what’s happening.
I am seeing your messages. replying when i can.
If typos are funny it’s because yes… I am still taking drugs for pain.
Yes… I’ll still be in my chair sleeping and chilling all day for quite a few more days, for sure.
I’m so grateful for this recliner chair because i honestly don’t know how I’d sleep in bed. This hugs me in, makes me feel safe to not move, keeps me on my back and is so comfy.
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So… why am I telling you all this? Because so many of you gorgeous souls have been sending messages and asking how i’m feeling.
And… of course… I will only ever tell you the full truth.
I’m sure there are people who would feel ashamed of cosmetic surgery and have a ton of shit things to say to me.
But I don’t care about what you have to say.
All i know is that I did one of the bravest thing I have ever done on Tuesday in removing 2/3rds of my breast tissue so that I could have freedom within my body to live my life. And in doing so… I wanted to come out looking as balanced and gorgeous as possible in this new body.
I’m not thin. I don’t look like a barbie doll. There was no liposuction done on my tummy. I still have fat I’ll want to release in the right time.
I’m still super swollen and mostly in compression suits, barely able to breathe.
I am told it takes a couple months for the swelling to really go down. I’m in compression clothes for 2-4 weeks as well as a compression bra for 4 weeks.
To anyone who is considering breast reduction… What EVERYONE told me before doing this… anyone who had a breast reduction with or without lipo with it… said it was the BEST DECISION EVER.
I still have no idea how I will look and feel in a few weeks. I’m still super bruised, super swollen and numb in the strangest places… completely drugged up on a pain killers…
AND already I know… this was an AMAZING decision. Already… I feel the difference with the weight of my boobs and I can’t wait to see how everything else unfolds as this unfolds.
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OH YEAH AND… did you by chance make note of the super amazing manifesting story in here?
My doc came in and told me she wanted to do a bit of lipo on my arms, that would for sure costs thousands to do. She didn’t charge me for that. YEAH!
Plus… the hospital fees were different for doing surgery on this date than my original dates, so she adjusted her fees to lower them to match the original quote.
SUPER COOL DOC who is amazing and looking out for me. YEAH for my epic manifesting because, life always works for me.
Ok… Getting super sleepy… gotta run, or really… gotta sleep…
But hey… I can do about a couple calls this week for new people wanting to join me and work with me to create your visions into your reality.
I’m booked on Monday.
If you want to connect about how to live and create your LIMITLESS LIFE where you even create FREEBIES FROM DOCTORS… I mean HOW MANY PEOPLE SAY DOCS DON’T GIVE AWAY THERE SERVICES, so Why should us coaches/services based peeps?
I still agree with that… AND… she was doing it because she completely messed me around with the dates and this was for sure her way of saying thank you for being flexible. Good way to do biz, for sure.
So anyway… this manifesting queen has polished up arms, that I bet if I never told you, you wouldn’t recognise it. It’s still super swollen and bruised but it looks so soft and natural.
I’m getting excited to help a couple new clients start in the next couple weeks to bring their wildest dreams to their reality.
You don’t have to know HOW… just have the vision, much like my arms… they somehow happened, in the last hour, literally… and free. What you imagine, you create.
What are you imagining?
I’m imagining giving away most my clothes and feeling the most free I’ve felt in years and I patiently wait that day to come , sitting in this chair for now.
Ok… night night… See ya soon!
PS- If you have any questions about anything, let me know and I’ll do my best to get back to you.
PPS- Only kind responses please. If you are here to tell me your opinion of what I have done and it’s not done so with love and kindness for my choices… don’t say anything at all. Thank you.
