CREATING A NEW MONEY STORY and a WHOLE NEW VERSION OF LIFE

I am sitting here listening to RENT (The musical). It was one of my favourite Broadway shows at the time it was popular. I saw it Live 3 times. It spoke to me deeply.

I haven’t heard the soundtrack in many years. And today… I listened the whole way through… singing… feeling it in my bones. (of course knowing all the words. #becausemusic)

And it makes me think of that time of my life. I was in my late teens/early twenties. College years.

I was lost.

I was miserable.

I was uncertain.

I was ANGRY.

I was bitter, judgemental, DEPRESSED.

I was suicidal.

Letters written.

I so DESPERATELY wanted to be LOVED.

I wanted to FIT IN.

I HATED MYSELF.

I thought I was HIDEOUS and could NEVER do anything right. NEVER.

I was going to fuck up my whole life so it simply wasn’t worth living.

There were 2 things that got me out of that hole.

1. I didn’t want to fail at something else. If I didn’t have enough toxic substance to kill myself… and I end up really sick. If I didn’t slit my wrist in the right place and end up fucking up my own suicide. I couldn’t BARE that.

The thought of that was worse than death itself.

2. EMPATHY. There were a few people in my life… that even though they have been the most triggering relationship always… still to this date… they are in my life. And still they trigger the f out of me. And I love them FULLY.

And I loved them then. And I couldn’t do this to them. It’s so f-ing selfish to do that to the people I love the most.

Those two things are why I am here today.

And every day I walk another step away from that hole.

Every day I work on my mindset and energy and vibrations to connect with self and love self and simply be so that I continue to grow stronger as a person, as a conscious soul on this planet.

I think of the person I was then and who I am now…

it’s night and day. Any of those people would agree.

I have done SO MUCH inner work.

I have done so much self-exploration.

I have done so much inner work to step into being the woman that shows up in new ways of being… a strong woman, who is still so soft and vulnerable.

I sit here reflecting and truly honouring the journey it has been.

It’s about a 20 year long journey out of that horrendous hole.

I feel grateful for every joyous and painful part of this journey.

I feel so proud of myself that I keep going. Day after day.

Moment after moment…

Even through the ones where I question it all and continue to choose life.

I continue to choose a bigger, grander, more incredible version of life.

I continue to receive what I ask for.

I am so grateful for each and every step. Every learning. Every person who has crossed my path to get me to sitting here in this moment.

I have lived a truly blessed life.

PS- MILLIONAIRE MINDSET

Have you heard about it yet? OMG… You have to get into it.

If you want to change your money story to create the most financially EPIC 2019 EVER then you MUST be in this incredible, interactive, deeply healing training on CREATING A NEW MONEY STORY and a WHOLE NEW VERSION OF LIFE.

What are you waiting for?

Get in NOW. Content starts dropping this week!

http://bit.ly/millionairemindset86

PPS- Who else was a RENT lover?