BIG REVEAL… BIG STORY

7.5 POUNDS / 3.4KGS GONE IN 6 DAYS.

Years ago… I gave up on QUICK fat loss… Starvation diets… Things masked as ways for me to fall into the trap of EATING DISORDERS…

So when I went looking for ways to CLEANSE after all the drugs from the surgery last year… a friend suggested a 10 day cleanse system.

When I looked at it originally the answer was immediately HELL NO.

The cleanse requires that I drink 3 green drinks a day, plus some other supps and eat about 3 cups of veg, berries or apple a day.

I’m NOT into starving myself.

Yet… About 1.5 weeks ago… My whole body said YES.
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I have battled BINGE EATING for as long as i can remember.

I have been open about this for years and over the years it has gotten MUCH better.

Funnily enough… Last night was the first time I told Hugh my favourite BINGE from many years ago in Australia… It was A full-size bag of Doritos and a family block of Cadbury’s chocolate.

I was FILTHY sick after eating that much crap in only a couple hours, if that.

I would never do that to my body anymore.

BUT… For me… even eating a chocolate bar or rice crackers or healthy chips with my kids, etc… STILL had an emotional pull on me. STILL I would not be able to say NO to my fav foods that I LOVED. Even if it was less… even if it was just a bite….

Chocolate has been a part of my daily love for YEARS. Even if it’s good quality… even sugar free… Even if it’s only 2 bites… I wanted it EVERY DAY and ate it.

And for me… that was still ADDICTION.

And the problem with FOOD ADDICTION versus other addictions to drugs, alcohol, etc… We all get to eat food to survive. I can’t simply GIVE UP FOOD.

And so 1.5 weeks ago… My whole said… ENOUGH. ENOUGH KERI.

I was frustrated with myself… eating something that had a ‘HOLD’ on me and I was ready to go ask for someone for ‘help’… AGAIN. AGAIN… UGHH! Really?!

And then in this moment I thought to myself…

Keri… You have done the mindset work…

You KNOW you are getting smaller and smaller physically every day.

You have the tools in your tool belt… WHAT ELSE COULD YOU POSSIBLY NEED?

JUST DO THE DAMN THING.

I mean seriously people… Hugh Norley is a fitness junky and for years we had a business called TARGETED FAT LOSS where he taught people how to lose fat from specific spots in your body. YES… it can be done.

I have helped tons of people with weight loss.

And yet… as HUMAN AF… I still had this thorn in my side that I simply couldn’t get the last handle on. SO CLOSE… yet SO FAR AWAY.

Can anyone else relate?

And that day… Stephanie Hershey Schoolmeester put a post up saying she was holding space for a 10 day cleanse starting on Monday (this past week).

JUST THE SIGN I NEEDED… I messaged her… I’m in.

I’M ALL IN.

you see… this detox… this weight loss… the fact that my head is getting clearer and I have more energy are all BONUSES to WHY I SAID YES.

I said yes because I KNEW… IN EVERY PART OF MY SOUL…

It was time to SIMPLY MAKE A DANG DECISION AND HONOUR MYSELF.

Not for anyone else. Not for weight loss. Not for the benefits… BUT BECAUSE IT WAS TIME TO DECIDE NOT TO PUT THE DAMN FOOD IN MY MOUTH and KNOW… that for an extended period of time… WHILE LIVING MY NORMAL LIFE… I COULD SAY NO.

I HAVE THE POWER IN EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF EVERY SINGLE DAY TO CHOOSE!

I ALWAYS DID… I just didn’t ALWAYS listen.

I would listen SOME TIMES… I have a healthy, whole food diet and last year before my surgery… spent a few months working with a nutritionist to literally breakthrough more of my UNHELPFUL stories around FOOD. We would LAUGH at what I would tell myself is ‘BAD’.

Having a piece of sourdough bread with my eggs and bacon… Having a few organic blue tortilla chips with my mince for nachos… Eating TOO MUCH FRUIT… OMG… the stories and the rules that ALL THE DIETS OVER ALL THE YEARS had trapped me in.

WE LAUGHED at how ‘healthy’ I was eating and how much a BEAT MYSELF UP.

YES PEOPLE… I AM HUMAN AF.

But I KNEW… I had to breakthrough those ridiculous stories I was telling myself if I wanted to have the surgery and not REBOUND and put all the weight back on simply because I was FEELING SO MUCH GUILT AND SHAME AROUND FOOD.

So back to this cleanse…

I decided it was time once and for all… TO LET MY ATTACHMENT TO FOOD GO.

And I knew… NO AMOUNT OF MINDSET WORK was going to stop the actual fact that I STILL get to decide what I PUT IN MY MOUTH.

I still CHOOSE.

And NO ONE can stop me but me…. Cause let’s be honest… Who binges or emotionally eats IN FRONT OF PEOPLE? Ummm… NO that doesn’t happen.

So this past 6.5 days has been a series of choices in every moment of the day.

I can’t remember the last time I went so long without chocolate. EVEN if only a bite.

I can’t remember the last time I truly STUCK to something food related, so committed for the WHOLE DURATION… NOT because I am PRAYING it that will help me lose the weight that stacked on over the years of BEATING MYSELF UP over my healthy food choices.

Not because someone told me to…

Not because I thought it was some ‘quick fix’… and would ‘kickstart’ my diet and weight loss…

UGH… I’ve been there over my lifetime and Done them all. HELLO SERIAL DIETER… Even paleo, keto, etc… You name it I have done it… whether for weight loss, energy, health, etc…

I DID THIS TO BREAK MY ADDICTION TO FOOD and to TRULY honour my body even when it’s super fucking hard.

This is by far the most challenging food experience I have been on.. and yet… SO SIMPLE.

There is NOT a lot of food, but yet… there has only been a couple moments where I have felt starving, simply because… I didn’t get to eating my food fast enough. There are times I feel hungry and get to SIT IN THE HUNGER and LET IT PASS.

I have walked the aisles of Costco with my fav samples. I have watched my kids eat pizza. I have smelled Hugh cook bacon and eggs and sat with him as he ate it…

I have lived life.

And I have said NO to ALL THE TEMPTATION.

I have shown myself.. It’s always SIMPLY A CHOICE.

But the reality.. that’s all ANYTHING EVER IS.

In ANY MANIFESTATION… we first MUST DECIDE and then take the ALIGNED ACTIONS.

I was just justifying or letting slide some of my actions… saying it’s ok… it’s ‘healthy’.

but the fact was… it had a hold on me and mamas… you know this one… finishing off kids food… packing things for them and eating some yourself… The MINDLESS EATING…

It all had to end.

I’m grateful this experience is 10 days and ONLY 10 days… cause I’m on day 7 and already excited for my first ‘meal’ in 3.5 days. But I’m glad it’s 10 days because it really is a good amount of time to change habits… in a big way.

I KNOW I AM POWERFUL. I know after this 10 days.. I STILL HAVE THE POWER TO CHOOSE.

NOT to starve myself… not to feel like I’m MISSING OUT… Not to eat mindlessly…

BUT TO CHOOSE.

To say YES TO ME.

EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF EVERY SINGLE DAY.

And for me… when I talk about soul-alignment.. this was the piece of my life that I wasn’t always true to my soul.

I was OFTEN true to my soul… MOSTLY true to my soul… but not ALWAYS.

And that’s simply not ok for me.

It was incongruent and out of integrity WITH MYSELF… and of course… showing up here with you. And I forgive and love myself… as I am perfectly imperfect and human AF.

I truly honour my journey of a lifetime to overcome this intense struggle and battle that I HAD with food.

And now… I’m so dang proud of myself for finally having the strength to let it go.

And the benefits…

OMG… I FEEL AMAZING.

Really… FRICKIN AMAZING.

For the first time in YEARS I am FINALLY lighter than my hubby.

After all the drugs from the surgery… my mental capacity was shit… My brain still hurt, a lot. I was getting headaches WAY MORE than I care to think about. My energy levels were still not up to full capacity.

And now… it all feels so much clearer and more energised, etc.

I am LOVING this superfood cleanse and feeling so grateful for saying YES TO ME.

I say it ALL THE TIME… How we play in ONE area is how we play in ALL AREAS.

This area ALWAYS plagued me. And I knew it was holding me back.

And it was time to simply decide and commit.

i am so looking forward to continuing this journey… to seeing how it unfolds int eh rest of my life…

And I’m not gonna lie… after years of the ‘battle’ with my weight… I’m pretty frickin excited to let that excess GO. AND TO FIND ME AGAIN.

The more and more I do this… the more and more I FIND ME.

The WHOLE ME.

The one that had been buried for so long.

Thank you to my dear friend Stephanie for NOT GIVING UP ON ME and for loving this SOOO MUCH that you kept inviting me in.

PS- If you are ready to overcome your stories around all the things that are holding you back in life… Whether it’s your health, relationships, career, finances… it all comes down to your mindset and your ability to CONSISTENTLY SHOW UP AND LISTEN TO YOUR SOUL… ALWAYS SAYING YES TO YOUR SOUL.

I did not get here overnight. I got here with a lot of help from mentors, coaches, friends, therapists, and a shit ton of personal development…

If you are feeling stuck, frustrated, overwhelmed and not sure what steps to take to get out of your TRAP… PM ME NOW.

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Let me help you on your journey and I can assure you… Your life will never be the same again. <3

PPS- If you want to know more about the cleanse… PM me or comment below… I’ll send you the details.