FEELING ALL THE FEELS
We leave for Costa Rica tomorrow and there is NO DOUBT in my mind that this was a 100% FULLY fuck yes aligned decision.
AND… today… my heart is breaking as I snuggle up to my kids that little bit more.
I am about to leave my boys for two weeks.
It’s a long time away.
And not only that… We are leaving them with my beautiful cousin for 10 days. We have thrown her into the deep end. And I know she will rise to the occasion.
It’s the first time we have left my kids with anyone but my mom for longer than a couple nights.
And today… I am feeling the massiveness of this decision, for all of us.
I am feeling the anxiety of leaving my boys in someone else’s care.
Today… We are loving on and squeezing each other a little bit more.
I pray that my boys are held in love.
I pray that all the people who have SOOO KINDLY offered to look after my boys are able to keep my boys safe.
I feel such IMMENSE GRATITUDE for the community of people we have around us. It’s literally taking a village of people to make this happen.
It has brought me to tears today the feeling of gratitude for such beautiful people and the kindness coming towards us.
I feel the intensity of what is to come… firstly travel… planes, connections, etc…
I am feeling the nervousness, fear, trepidation and anxiety that ALWAYS comes before I fly to a new country. I have been a traveler my whole life and still before each big trip… I feel this way… with the unknown that is to come and hope that we are equipped to deal with what is before us.
Then the retreat. My heart is feeling cracked open and already falling into he surrender of what is to come… and ego ohhh she wants to cave me in. Keep me protected.
There is a big journey ahead. And I know without a doubt… this is the kind of journey that creates that divide… Life before Costa Rica and life after Costa Rica. So much expansion ahead.
I am so looking forward to 10 days alone with my hubby… falling in love at a whole new level. It’s in both of our hearts. And that feels exhilarating and scary AF.
Travel is SOO EXPANSIVE on so many levels.
And today… I just sit here… feeling all the feels.
Today… I get to pack. The beep just come in on my phone said that I can check in for my flight.
Pinching myself… YES… THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING.
I feel so frickin BLESSED to be able to live this life.
I am so frickin blessed that we have created a life that allows us to do this.
I wish this level of abundance for EVERYONE.
