PLEASE LOVE ME?
Tears fell…
I cracked open…
Looking at him in the eyes…
‘PLEASE LOVE ME?’ I said
‘Look at me… see me in all my crazy and LOVE ME?’
And he smiled and said… ‘OF COURSE I LOVE YOU. I knew. I have always known. I chose this.
I love you.’
He’s my rock.
Through all my ups and downs and I have many… he is my rock.
And as we truly stand in our truths and love each other more and more…
my heart cracks open more and more.
And I feel so blessed and grateful to be here, in this moment, building this life…with my husband who sees me in every facet and loves me for it all, even if he doesn’t always like it. LOL
I have carried a fairy tale image of love for my whole life. Remember… I grew up a princess in a fairy tale happy ever after, surrounded by love.
And my hubby has not always been the prince that i dreamed of. We have had major challenges in our relationship, like many people do.
But this past year I have learned so much about true, unconditional love.
I suck at it… often.
But the more I lean into it.
The more I lean into him.
The more I trust.
The more i surrender.
The more I give him the space to shine.
The more I support him.
The more I stand in my divine feminine…
The more I am me… in my power…
The more we love each other.
The more we chose each other.
There more we see each other for all of who we are and continue to say yes.
The better it gets.
About a year ago… I said to this gorgeous human being on the planet… in the darkest despair of our relationship… we will either end of divorced or we will make it through this and teach other couples how to manifest their ideal relationships WITHIN the relationship.
We keep choosing each other. We keep saying yes to each other.
Trust me… there are days I want to run the other way and I am frustrated AF with my love.
But more and more… I just feel grateful for his love and support and for standing by my side through it all.
Today… i feel grateful for my husbands support, being a rock in my life and his love, even when I want to push him away and hole up on my own.. which let’s be real… isn’t what I want at all.
Go on… tell me… what are you grateful for about your partner?
Where are you looking for him/her to fuck it up instead of seeing all the amazingness that lies within?
Let me know in the comments below. 
Photo credit: Florian Kuster
