ARE YOU PUSHING AWAY HELP? ARE YOU PUSHING AWAY WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED?

For so long I have pushed help away.

Hugh and I have been having the most real, raw and amazing conversations lately. We are fully mirroring and reflecting each other and actually welcoming the feedback and then looking within and seeing how that sits within ourselves.

We are in a really powerful and amazing time in our relationship. It’s never felt so loving before. And not with a false romanticism… It’s with the real, truth, in our rawest, most vulnerable expressions. It’s quite beautiful, really.

It’s not easy to face the reflection all day every day and say yes to accepting the truth of that and desiring to dive deep and shift that way of showing up.

And we are in it. And doing it with so much love.

He offered to help me tonight with an internal battle I’ve had going on as I look at my relationship with food. He did it with so much love. And I heard what he said and went to thank him for it and rejoice in his desire to help me.

I said… ‘I thank you for wanting to help me. I appreciate you and I feel loved.’

He said… ‘ I’ve always wanted to help you. You just made it difficult. You won’t even help yourself with this, so how can I help you?’

And I sat in that for a moment. At that reflection. And I feel that.

FIrst of all… If he had said that to me a year ago… I would have been triggered and angry. He said it today and I heard it and took it to heart. He said this to help me.

In the past, I’ve often not given him the space to share these reflections with me cause I would often want to bite his head off with them. And because his pattern is to hole up behind a wall. So it would have ended up in a battle or me being a ‘poor me’ victim. And eating more. LOL

Second of all… How many times I haven’t been willing to do what it takes, when it takes? How I won’t help myself and simply decide that a pattern is not serving me and just ‘STOP IT’, as Hugh has been saying to me?

And I sit in contemplation of how many times others and universal energy has wanted to help me and I have pushed it away. Which is hilarious to even write about because my hubby calls me the ‘Queen of Outsourcing’. I happily accept help. And most people I know call me the ‘Queen of Manifestation’. It’s MAGIC for me. I’m happy to receive, for sure. But there is truth in what Hugh is saying to me as well.

We are all everything. All aspects. 🙂

And I contemplate… how much even better life can be if I just said yes to those manifestations that I so deeply desire. And allow myself to receive the help that will light the way to them.

I’m feeling called to bring this moment in time to you to share some of the big work that is happening behind the scenes. Life is definitely shifting before my very eyes and massive leaps of faith are happening.

Also to ask you to consider are you pushing away help? Are you pushing away what you have always wanted? What if you simply said ‘YES’? How would your life be different then?

And… if you are in a relationship that feels blah and frustrating… don’t give up hope. There is a way through. 🙏❤️💎🔮

There is so many layers to this moment. Please share with me… what is your takeaway from this? I appreciate you for doing so. ❤

Photo: Jamy Schumacher